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Abandoned Decaying Toys

by Safia Elaina

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1.
From these lips, dark nectar lingers and bleeds decadence Moonflowers of my soul strike the hearts of those who dance To the words that drip off of my tongue, this is romance Not chemical, but optional if one would like opulance Woulds’t thou like to live deliciously? Dine impeccabily, breathe in the world as it is ambitiously Would you ever be Brave enough to see I am the true dark heart of royalty This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of you This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of Hell is in front of Hell is in front of you From these eyes these corpses march on to a new day No control for the poisoned souls, rules are for yesterdays Rosy intentions in lust for women, fuck his reprimands Your Hell is my pleasure, kings killed for being bland Woulds’t thou like to live deliciously? Dine impeccabily, breathe in the world as it is ambitiously Would you ever be Brave enough to see I am the true dark heart of royalty This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of you This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of Hell is in front of Hell is in front of you Join me on my grand endeavor Forget the things they say to each other Let live in one’s own grain, please remember Life must be lived in fun not whoever It’s my turn now, hear me shout forever Woulds’t thou like to live deliciously? Dine impeccabily, breathe in the world as it is ambitiously Would you ever be Brave enough to see I am the true dark heart of royalty This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of you This is what you see This is what you hear This is what you feel When Hell is in front of Hell is in front of Hell is in front of you
2.
Moth Hearts 00:55
Moth hearts have been with me and they flutter sweet Still in mourning for the morning doves Moth hearts, no spark In the dark, lost stars Moth hearts have been with me and they flutter sweet Still in mourning for the morning doves Moth hearts, no spark In the dark, lost stars Moth hearts, no spark In the dark, lost stars Moth hearts, moth hearts We flutter and fall apart
3.
Petite and sweet, so afraid of being rejected You are just meat, something succulent to devour These are the words that you feed to me in the night Visions blurred, I see a hybrid, Bugs Bundy You’re always quick to call me crazy and lazy You say it best I’m fucking stupid and useless Sweet as poison, Life is just spoiling And I let it rot The small town ghosts are all waiting here to see My escape from this life of damnation The small town ghosts think that there is hell to pay And when due dilligence is served, I’ll be in wonderland parades So torn in half, oh I may just eat at myself A honeyed bath, the decadence of tears of wealth Breeding lillies out of trees of silk and mire Wearing darkness, grotesque sadness You’re always quick to call me crazy and lazy You say it best I’m fucking stupid and useless Sweet as poison, Life is just spoiling And I let it rot The small town ghosts are all waiting here to see My escape from this life of damnation The small ghosts think that there is hell to pay And when due dilligence is served, I’ll be in wonderland parades The things from the dirt Have been so perturbed They say that if I don’t see things quite right The world could end in a dying fight The star that they believe I am is royalty and they can’t stand to see the willow trees falling over me The small town ghosts are all waiting here to see My escape from this life of damnation The small ghosts think that there is hell to pay And when due dilligence is served, I’ll be in wonderland parades
4.
Darling, I am starved and deprived Of all the things that I’d like To hold, to cherish, to keep To have, to be, read it and weep I’m a liar, a sinner, unhinged, don’t you see Sex with devils and angels, like God said to be Can you see that this is the world that we all birthed Thrive in the madness, the chaos, lessons can’t be learned Till you turn back the clocks of time You won’t see how wrong you are when “right” Make up the rules as you go There’s no one more corrupt than us You know this You know This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted Darling, I’m a rat in disguise Can’t help, but devour my pride Illness, terminal sadness The clock it twists, I am Alice Orphelia, my leader, drowning in the lake It’s at this time I wonder if I am a fake Lithium in my tea, I have collapsed at sea No one attempts to stop me, cause they’re never free Till you turn back the clocks of time You won’t see how wrong you are when “right” Make up the rules as you go There’s no one more corrupt than us You know this This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted And when you can’t find me Cause my body’s rotten I promise to haunt you ’Til you have your coffin But until that day, I will suffer in my pride Conjure up a smile, My purpose is to hide And when it is done to complete perfection You’ll know this is the art of… This is the art of… This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted This is the art of being living dead Will you use my blood to paint the world in dread Oh, don’t touch me, I’ve been exsanguinated A walking corpse, life’s been deleted
5.
Dear Diary 03:19
Delusional God complex Pulling out my teeth So sick, Disillusioned Ignore all my needs Teddy’s instead of doctors Never wanna eat Scared of all the others People will hurt me Make up fake people who could Care for me, give me hugs, and should Be able to handle my burdens Dear diary, dear, dear diary Everything hurts, will it ever fucking leave? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary I’m exhausted, can you see? Can anyone love me? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary Oh dear diary, dear, dear diary Intense self hatred Question affection Keep thyself a secret Live in confusion Watch myself self destruck God, I wanna run Can someone take care of me This isn’t any fun Make up fake people who could Care for me, give me hugs, and should Be able to handle my burdens Dear diary, dear, dear diary Everything hurts, will it ever fucking leave? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary I’m exhausted, can you see? Can anyone love me? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary Oh dear diary, dear, dear diary These pink leather gloves Hold up my cheeks like turtledoves The attempt to see my eyes Red and itchy from my cry I’m new to the love A home given from up above Treat me with all cuddles Lots of hugs, tons of bubbles Dear diary, dear, dear diary Everything hurts, will it ever fucking leave? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary I’m exhausted, can you see? Can anyone love me? Please? Dear diary, dear, dear diary Oh dear diary, dear, dear diary
6.
Doll 04:45
Mama says I’ve been a real good bad girl Papa says He’s afraid I’ll blow up the world My wounds are lethal to those who cause ‘em so You’d better watch out cause my blade runs on expresso Emperean devils witnessed my greatest fall They rose me up like a tattered little doll Wicked vanillla, scattered hearts and brains Fill me up with your poision and remains That’s what they say That’s what they say Give me daisies and liquor and jewels Give me candy much sweeter than pools Of blood, baby Give me everything I don’t need Help me, can’t feel a goddamn thing Dressed up like a doll that’s all I’ll be A doll, baby Balloons on chains, you’re afraid I’ll fly away Blow out my brains, try to keep my fun astray Bring me your diamonds, I am worth billions And I don’t care about your fucked up opinions My art’s an antidote to melancholia Bear it now, joyous memorabilia Filled with rage, absolutely adoring Call it mellifluous, colorless fever dream That’s what they say That’s what they say Give me daisies and liquor and jewels Give me candy much sweeter than pools Of blood, baby Give me everything I don’t need Help me, can’t feel a goddamn thing Dressed up like a doll that’s all I’ll be A doll, baby The lost art of pretending to be Someone else, beautiful tragedy At some point you’ll realize the fee Is brand new you, the immoral key Give me daisies and liquor and jewels Give me candy much sweeter than pools Of blood, baby Give me everything I don’t need Help me, can’t feel a goddamn thing Dressed up like a doll that’s all I’ll be A doll, baby

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♡ Sweet as strawberry frosting is the Queen of Hell, and soft as lush pink pillows is the apocalypse she births onto the earth. Drown in the beauty of immense reversals of fate, and bathe in the acid trips of spectacular demons. A psychedelic, dark pop, and rock inspired record awaits you. ♡

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released March 13, 2020

♡ Written, composed, produced, mixed and mastered with love by Safia Elaina in her bedroom.♡

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Safia Elaina Detroit, Michigan

A small 23 year old singer-songwriter producer daydreaming up stories in the form of songs with a fascination for the marriage of the horrific and the girlish wonder.

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