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Homemade Heaven

by Safia Elaina

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1.
โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก 1/2 cup of angel's wings 2 sprinkles of candy rings stir up all the things at home with the heavens in sweet gold springs can you hear the bells ring? crystal coffin wedding kiss the knife just like a bride a nice fairytale ending โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก I'm just waiting in the middle of the night hoping to get out of the disguise that holds me back from what I can do when there's no eyes โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก I'm baking up a batch of homemade heaven I'm closing up my eyes and counting to seven babe, don't even try to worry I will never be happy this is just how the world spins baking up a batch of heaven โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก Kissing booth? rather killing happier without a king i'm a princess and you know this I'd rather live in the spring this vanilla icing it is so enticing blood masked as strawberry jam babe, isn't this amazing? โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก I'm just waiting in the middle of the night hoping to get out of the disguise that holds me back from what I can do when there's no eyes โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก I'm baking up a batch of homemade heaven I'm closing up my eyes and counting to seven babe, don't even try to worry I will never be happy this is just how the world spins baking up a batch of heaven โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก See what happens when you bake up a batch of heaven? Everything goes to shit โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก I'm baking up a batch of homemade heaven I'm closing up my eyes and counting to seven babe, don't even try to worry I will never be happy this is just how the world spins baking up a batch of heaven โ™ก๐Ÿฅ›๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฅ›โ™ก
2.
Angel Puke 03:28
โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก babydoll, slipping on the Mary Janes babydoll, a sucker for the toxic pain she's starving on the floor hoping to find a way to avoid decapitation on tender days โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก and here we are in the middle of an abandoned mansion complaining because of โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก this sickness that eats me baby, I can't breathe I'm crumbling from the misery I'm so sick I can not see angel puke, baby this is the misery angel puke, baby โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก babydoll, tossing and turning at night babydoll, her misery is his delight she's angry and she's looking for revenge all she wants is to see him descend โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก and here we are in the middle of an abandoned mansion complaining because of โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก this sickness that eats me baby, I can't breathe I'm crumbling from the misery I'm so sick I can not see angel puke, baby this is the misery angel puke, baby โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก can't function any more hiding behind closed doors life has become a chore so let it pour โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก this sickness that eats me baby, I can't breathe I'm crumbling from the misery I'm so sick I can not see angel puke, baby this is the misery angel puke, baby โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก this sickness that eats me baby, I can't breathe I'm crumbling from the misery I'm so sick I can not see angel puke, baby this is the misery angel puke, baby โ™ก๐Ÿ˜‡โ™ก
3.
Blood Bells 03:13
๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ Do you hear the bells from hell rings and chimes of rotten jail cells flicker in madness shattered of joys the dolls from hell you'd forget that they're toys the blood that she bathed in, babe don't you see the terrible horrors crumble before me ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ They go scream into their descent burned the house the devil lived in he boiled right over the red in his eyes nothing could stop him so don't even try the blood that he bathed in, babe don't you see the terrible horrors crumble before me ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ They're shaped in the sinner's blood hide in the schoolyard mud no one's yelling but should hear the hounds in the woods It may sound ill, but they're coming to kill coming to kill, they're coming to kill. ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰ ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ring-a-ding-ding, the blood bells they ring ring-a-ding-ding, the horrors unseen they come ringing, they come singing you know they come killing, they come dying to glow ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ›Ž๐Ÿ’‰
4.
โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก Smoking candy cigarettes flying in flooded houses God, I have made such a mess I'll close my eyes and switch the lens โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก I'm bigger than houses smaller than worms which way's up? which way's down attention, attention, ladies and gentlemen โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก Shotguns waving in the air Do you even fucking care? God, you have made such a mess I'll close my eyes and switch the lens โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก I'm bigger than houses smaller than worms which way's up? which way's down attention, attention, ladies and gentlemen โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream This is not a dream not a dream for the forgotten this is not a dream not a dream for the rotten this is not a dream not a dream not a dream this is not a dream this is not a dream โ™กโ˜๏ธโ™ก
5.
Mary 04:14
โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ scavenger hunt by the infested water just before our wake for our flower, I'm bothered these orphaned halls, these masters, abandoned leave behind lies that dance around, enchanted โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ This looking glass bleeds we're masked with fatigue it's older than Thebes yet the story proceeds โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ maggots had her for dinner before dusk broke her head was missing, her body by the grey smoke these sick small laughs, cigarettes in their hands you knew from the faces, they're less than the lambs โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ This looking glass bleeds we're masked with fatigue it's older than Thebes yet the story proceeds โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ so every halloween in your nightly rage you take a soul when they chant your name bloody, bloody, bloody, bloody mary won't you come over? come on over โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, mary sinking in her love eat me, drink me, terrified of me rats eating at my flesh, I am drowning mary, mary asleep in the tub mary, tell me who poisoned your cup who killed you when you least expected it who was the culprit, made the soul and split โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ
6.
Angels 03:17
โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก The year is 1962 and everything reminds me of you I do sit back and believe i'm ruined I guess that just like the flower kids i'm a traveler with no map in mind โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก I'm wasting away my life because I'll always be a mess is that alright? โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก the year is 1983 and everything is just peachy I see you don't talk to anyone like me I guess that like the kiss of death that you might be the end of me โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก I'm wasting away my life because I'll always be a mess is that alright? โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก It's a doll disorder can't even take care of myself it's a mess of a murder with no culprit in sight tonight It's a doll disorder can't even take care of myself it's a mess of a murder with no culprit in sight tonight โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore tell the angels I'm not able to pick myself up anymore pick myself up anymore โ™กโ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ผโ˜๏ธโ™ก
7.
Bleed Honey 04:33
โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ I dip myself in the rose water to cleanse myself of the hate hunger It doesn't always work out Absinthe on my old blouse โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ picking daisies in meadows like a farm girl, betrothed and tonight, it rains apples If it's my fault, I'll be stoned โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ I watch obscure films They help me descend Into my inner world I'll leave you here โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ In a world of drinking water bleed honey, bleed honey be the one you've always wanted bleed honey, bleed honey bleed, bleed, bleed til you can't take it no more bleed, bleed, bleed til your stage is the whole world bleed honey, baby โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ All these butterfly skeletons in my stomach and won't quit sometimes, I seem pretty nymph-like strawberry heart, but i do bite โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ cherry & marshmellow secrets in a doll sealed with a kiss set the carousels on fire I hate rules written by liars โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ I watch obscure films They help me descend Into my inner world come on with me โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ In a world of drinking water bleed honey, bleed honey be the one you've always wanted bleed honey, bleed honey bleed, bleed, bleed til you can't take it no more bleed, bleed, bleed til your stage is the whole world bleed honey, baby โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ why be a copier? why be a thief? is it because you are nothing underneath? why be a copier? why be a thief? is it because you are nothing underneath? Why be the same when life is a game don't be like the others, you'll throw yourself away that's what they told me but i never listen โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ In a world of drinking water bleed honey, bleed honey be the one you've always wanted bleed honey, bleed honey bleed, bleed, bleed til you can't take it no more bleed, bleed, bleed til your stage is the whole world bleed honey, baby โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ’‰๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ’‰โ˜๏ธ
8.
โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ Bruise, bruises bruise, bruises โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ I'm a mess I made up all of my friends in my head they have no real weaknesses โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ I met them in my inner hospital we made up jokes and shared our skittles ran around and played with graveyard riddles jumping around in the bloody puddles โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ my head's all bashed in became a spirit's den these wolves are howling and I have a butterscotch bruise, bruise caramel bandaid on my bruise my butterscotch bruise โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ I'm a mess pace back and forth talking to nothing people staring and wondering โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ why do I talk to the seat in my car? cry in the night while wishing with the stars? see the smallest thing and then fall apart? giggle at the world that lies in my heart? โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ my head's all bashed in became a spirit's den these wolves are howling and I have a butterscotch bruise, bruise caramel bandaid on my bruise my butterscotch bruise โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ there's nothing in my abandoned warehouse of daydreams there's nothing that you or anyone can see you may call this crazy, but it's reality โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ my head's all bashed in became a spirit's den these wolves are howling and I have a butterscotch bruise, bruise caramel bandaid on my bruise my butterscotch bruise โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿฏโ˜๏ธ
9.
โ™ก๐ŸŽ€โ™ก They say the world is falling apart I think it's fine cause I have my own heart It beats sparkles and strawberry milk but if it's too much, I'll need help Tell the buzzy bee "everything will be fine" Tell the buzzy bee "everything will be fine" Even if the world's starting to die. "everything will be fine" โ™ก๐ŸŽ€โ™ก
10.
Trust 00:47
โ™ก๐Ÿ—โ™ก I don't know you you don't know me I can be a friend or an enemy ask yourself If i'm worthy of your trust Can I have your trust? Give me all you got, but I can't promise I'm not rotten too... So give me all your trust. โ™ก๐Ÿ—โ™ก
11.
โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก I can't see beyond the cotton candy graveyard tombs. I fall in love with the pains the bombs and the dark rooms. I eat love love whole and vomit till i'm no longer sick of all the times you touched me, made me angry, made me tick. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก And like a ticking time bomb, I go on. Ticking, ticking, tick, tock, tick. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก Go on and cry about your spilled milk, your bunny bones. Go on and whine about your cold soul, your shattered home. Little girl can't you see? You'll grow up into me, dying inside over spilled milk and bunny bones. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก I cough up glitter, stars, hopes and daydreams too. Then when I'm done I chop my limbs into a stew. There's something pretty about the way I decompose. Oh won't somebody come, come and save my wretched soul. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก And like a ticking time bomb, I go on. Ticking, ticking, tick, tock, tick. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก Go on and cry about your spilled milk, your bunny bones. Go on and whine about your cold soul, your shattered home. Little girl, can't you see? you'll grow up into me, dying inside over spilled milk and bunny bones. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก I hang myself with the roses, kissed by sweet belladonna. Drink tea with the honey and the pain, I fear it's all the same. Milk and moth stains on my blouse. My tears flooded this old house. There's nothing you can do so go on, go cry about it. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก Go on and cry about your spilled milk, your bunny bones. Go on and whine about your cold soul, your shattered home. Little girl can't you see? You'll grow up into me, dying inside over spilled milk and bunny bones. โ™ก๐Ÿ‡๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ‡โ™ก
12.
โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก dance in the autopsy theater abandoned filled with the souls, unheard got no soul, sold it for the beauty got no brain, it don't work. how amusing... โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก the room's upside down, can you feel it? using cherries as my lipstick got no heart, replaced it with honey got no face, it didn't give me money โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก everyone is rotting milk teeth and hair falling i don't mind cause i'm rotting for you โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก I'm the prettiest girl in the morgue I'm not dead, but I'm the best damn ghost breathing and life have divorced i'm not real, let's give it a toast to the happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก have a happy homicide the girls will scream and boys will cry are you fucking sad inside? have a happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก pride myself on a life, exiled we're not human, we're entitled got no love, ate it in a heartbeat got no words, live in the poetry โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก shoot her and i'm the one who bleeds beg for hand on your fucking knees got no patience, live for indulgence got no heaven, dying like a hell-kid โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก everyone is rotting milk teeth and hair falling i don't mind cause i'm rotting for you โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก I'm the prettiest girl in the morgue I'm not dead, but I'm the best damn ghost breathing and life have divorced i'm not real, let's give it a toast to the happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก have a happy homicide the girls will scream and boys will cry are you fucking sad inside? have a happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก It's only a game only a day where everything can go wrong It's only a game where everything can go wrong โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก I'm the prettiest girl in the morgue I'm not dead, but I'm the best damn ghost breathing and life have divorced i'm not real, let's give it a toast to the happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก have a happy homicide the girls will scream and boys will cry are you fucking sad inside? have a happy homicide โ™ก๐ŸŽ€๐Ÿ”ช๐ŸŽ€โ™ก

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"Homemade Heaven" is my second mixtape. It was heavily inspired by the daydreams that I've been having over the past couple of months with themes of horror and of refusing to follow the rules that do no good. Sometimes heaven is something that you have to make for yourself.

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released July 27, 2018

All music was completed by Safia Elaina in her bedroom.

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A small 23 year old singer-songwriter producer daydreaming up stories in the form of songs with a fascination for the marriage of the horrific and the girlish wonder.

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